Friday, February 06, 2004

I Promise: No More Bad Break-Up Poetry

So, in a nutshell let's take a look at what's happened in the last two months:

1. We broke up, naturally.

2. Went to the company Christmas party anyway (he'd have to be there too).

3. Mr X shacks up with Miss X, hell let's just call her Crystal my co-worker for fun, and things go on merrily - that is, behind my back. She's blonde.

4. Two weeks later, Mr X "surprises" me with his confession as if I was kidding when I would always say "I know everything"...because I do. And I did.

5. Crystal doesn't necessarily feel slightly obligated to throw me a "hey, I know we work together and I'm sorry things didn't work out with you guys but I'm seeing him now...just so you know" my way.

6. I get hung up over the initial shock of the news for a little while, people try to get a rise out of me, I play the puppet until I realised - what the?! What?...Wait - I still don't care. I let go of these people in my life and listen to my own instincts.

7. They still be seein' each other and all that. And that's cool. But it still wouldn't hurt for Crystal, ahem, Miss X to step to me and be straight up. We work together and all. All I expect is what is expected of me. That's all.

8. I recently just got a job in my field so sadly it's time to part with my part time job I've been working in since high school. This is saying goodbye to so much more than words can say.

This job has encompassed so much of my adolescence: I started in 2000. The first time I had my first boyfriend of 2 years and some, the first guy I really fell in love with that I'm still hung up on right now (damn you, girlfriend!) and then the last guy...but you've heard enough of him.

Meeting Sex and the City and inspiring a whole new wardrobe that would make any InStyle or Vogue enthusiast smile.

High school, college, internships, other jobs. This job was the only constant in my life for 4 years and now that I have to let it go and move on to something so grown-up...it's kinda scary. But really exciting at the same time.

"I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?"

--Foo Fighters, "Times Like These"

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